I often find myself ruminating about everything that transpired between my abuser and I, particularly the night he violently assaulted me. I replay everything in my mind, looking for clues as to when and why he decided to hurt me.
In my post “No Longer Silent,” I mentioned that I struggled with guilt surrounding the violence between my abuser and I. I feel guilty for introducing this man to my family and friends. They were all taken in by his calm, laid-back manner, apparent dedication to me, and charming personality; just as I was.
It is because of his good characteristics that I am still unable to wrap my mind around the violent end to our relationship. He was a hardworking man, and provided well for our family. He would go out of his way to help people in need and always had a word of encouragement for others…
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