Narcissistic abuse is painful. You can experience such grief in the midst of being emotionally abused that you feel hopeless.
Depression and anxiety can overcome your heart, your mind and your soul. Healing from this extreme level of multi-layered pain takes time.
You are not alone. Living in sn abusive environment is like living in hell. Your reality can become twisted all around by the abuser, who does this intentionally. They get some sadistic pleasure from confusing you and stripping away your identity.
All kinds of symptoms can arise, even months after you are out of the abuse. The psychopath or narcissist wants you to still think about them after they are gone. It feeds their addiction to attention and grandiosity.
You feel small and insignificant…and like you are living under a heavy weight that you can hardly move underneath of.
You can heal and regain your sense of self. Keep having faith in yourself and imagine the things you want out of life.
You were conditioned…probably from childhood…that what you want does not matter. But why do someone else’s dreams matter more than yours do?
Don’t give up. It gets darker before it gets lighter. There are moments of crushing darkness but the light is still out there waiting for you.
There are other victims who care and can help to lead you out. Talking to people who have not been through narcissistic abuse can retraumatize you. Try to find people who have been there and have gone through the darkness into the light.
Let tbe veil of illusion come down and let the light come in to heal your broken heart and wounded soul.