There is a type of predator that is so dark, that the results of any relationship with one of them is the destruction of basically everything they can possibly destroy in regards to you and your life.
These narcissistic predators will cause their victims to sink into such a pit of darkness that you will have have moments where you believe that death might be a welcome relief.
They drive their victims to having deep depression and often suicidal thoughts. You will find yourself questioning whether you were mentally unbalanced the whole time, rather than wanting to think that the abuser caused it on purpose.
This type of dark creature appears nearly normal in public, so that no one suspects anything is wrong with them. They might even be well thought of in the community as a humanitarian, a scholar, an artist, or a leader.
Little do their circle of associates know that there is a dangerous contempt and rage seething at their core. There is a resentment of authority and an extreme obsession with manipulation and control.
The rage usually only occurs once the curtains are drawn and the doors are locked. However, it is always lurking just below the surface of their well constructed mask.
The Dark Triad Predator lures their victims into their battle field by covering it with roses, Christian crosses, bibles, yoga mats, money, or whatever else will hold your attention just long enough to keep you from looking too deep into their eyes.
They don’t want you to see it yet.
No. Not so soon. These things must be carefully times.
Showing the rage too soon might cause fear or horror to creep into your mind prematurely.
That just wouldn’t do, now would it?
In order to disguise the creature that lurks beneath, this abuser avoids your glance.
Sometimes they will acknowledge your look while turning to the side or pointing to something alternate for you to look at.
It’s too early to let on.
They don’t want to reveal it yet.
Occasionally, in a bold moment, they may look right at you while in the midst of a vivacious monologue about themselves. But if you really looked…
But you didn’t, did you?
All evil things come to those who wait, particularly if the waiting is being done by a target of this predator.
They will carefully monitor their vocal tone so as not to allow a glimmer of that rage to seep through.
They don’t want you to hear it yet.
These predators will use slight of han, smoke and mirrors, and other tricks to get you to see the image they want you to see.
The image they want you to see is the good hearted person you have hoped for. It’s not time for you to look too deeply.
They don’t want you to see it yet.
Their conversations will engage, charm, and lead your mind towards imagining hopeful things for the future.
They are lying because they don’t want you to see the black pit that lies before you. Its just beyond the next step you’re getting ready to take.
The ground is getting ready to open. There is a gaping black hole just beyond where you’re standing, and the abuser won’t let on.
No, they want to lead you forward in the way that any great leader leads others. They promise rewards for believing in them and hint that it is best never to actually question them.
No. It’s better not to question them.
Not out loud.
Not in your mind.
Not at all. Not ever.
Little by little you learn to keep your opinions, your ideas, your suggestions and your gut feelings about things they say to yourself. You are being groomed.
You are being trained. You are being brainwashed. You are being indoctrinated into their world.
This is life with a dark triad personality. The three elements are narcissism, psychopathy, and Machiavellian personality.
Their world only really consists of them. Everyone else is a pawn in their great game of chess.
But they don’t want you to know it yet.
No. They don’t want you to see the blackness in their evil eyes. They don’t want you to hear the fury that is lying just beneath their well crafted exterior.
But most of all, they don’t want you to see what you are standing on. The fire that burns beneath the ground is building and the heat is increasing.
At a certain point, you will have reached the point of no return. Yes, maybe you could have made a polite, yet firm exit earlier on, but it’s too late for you now.
Even attempting to step a toe off that unholy ground would singe your toes and spread up your foot. No. There is no painless way out.
There is no way out from their clutches without severe losses. One of those losses could be your children. It could be your sanity. Or it could be your life.
Yes. Your life as you once knew it to be is no more. You can never go back. Not ever.
Moving forward from this point on will be pain, loss, grief, and extreme loss. So many losses.
But what do you know? The floor has been covered with those roses for some time now. Petals of softness under your feet.
Yes. Perhaps a thorn or two may have drawn a few drops of blood from time to time.
How many times you ask yourself? That’s funny. You can’t really remember. It’s like your memory has been affected.
Even when you try to think about stepping off of that predator’spredator’ s grounds, you don’t really see the edge of things. Maybe you’re tired. Maybe your perception has become a bit confused.
The edges have become blurred, haven’t they? The concept you once had of yourself has also become blurred. Blurred against what you wonder? Blending between yourself and who exactly?
You wonder who this dark stranger is. The one that spits vile words at you for reasons you cannot understand. Perhaps you are not as intelligent as they are to understand why they rage? Maybe.
Or maybe the person you thought you were being lead by is not the person you thought they were. Maybe, they are not a normal person at all.
You try to remember the things that once drove you. What sparked your passion ? Why has your brain been fully focused on the wants and desires of this one individual?
What happened to the person you used to be? It’s like you have been eviscerated. But how? You can’t remember now. Besides there’s no time for that.
The creature needs to be fed and looked after. After all, you wouldn’t want to upset him would you?
You know what could happen if he feels you are not doing you very best to serve and obey him, don’t you?
Maybe you need a reminder, he roars at you. After all I’ve done for you and given up for you?
“I’m so sorry,” you mutter, with your head down. Your eyes look down at your toes, without dating to raise themselves up.
You don’t dare look into those eyes. You know the ones. They used to be a soothing brown, or perhaps a lovely blue.
But not lately. No. Not for quite some time.
Those eyes are black holes. That dark stare frightens you. No. Better to keep your head down, or at least look away.
You can pretend you’re like a little girl who’s been naughty. Maybe that will garner some human instinct in the creature.
But deep down, you know it won’t bring any humanity out in him. No. Nothing can brought out if it were never there in the first place.
There is only cruelty. There is only punishment. There is only shame. There is only them.
They wanted it that way all along. For you to be blurred with them. But why do they loath you so? Why aren’t they happy you have sacrificed yourself for Then?
You were supposed to do it. They were entitled to your submission. It’s not a gift of love. They don’t have to appreciate you.
You belong to them. They believe that you must obey them. They don’t see it as a choice. After all, they are so powerful. Once they will something to come about, it must come about.
You are merely a shadow of themselves. They have attributed their most loathsome qualities into you. Now they can spew all their contempt and hatred your way.
And when the sun shines again, it will not shine for you. And it will not shine for the creature.
As the sunlight dances off the beauty of the day, it dances for the person that does not exist. It shines for the illusory image that the creature covers itself with during the day.
As for you. You’ll have to hold the hand of that person that does not exist. And pray the creature lurking beneath does not come out to feed tonight.
Keep your head down. Avert your eyes. Speak carefully. Walk gently.
And whatever you do…. don’t look into their eyes.
You won’t like what you’ll see.
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Here are the nine traits of narcissistic personality disorder.
1. Grandiosity – This is an unrealistic view of oneself that they are bigger than life and better than others. They feel that they have a godlike, divine or extremely powerful purpose of being on the earth. Their very being is to be admired and obeyed. Nothing is more important than they are.
2. Arrogant and Domineering – think they are better than everyone else. They know more than anyone else. Controlling of others and dominating. They see others as inferior to them in intelligence, vision, looks, and everything else. They expect other people to admire and be in awe of them.
3. Preoccupation with Success and Power – They have a need to be powerful and have a cult of followers that admire them. They like to have a harem of sorts of people around them, as if they are a king or a queen. Their drive for success and power is due to their need for narcissistic supply and to get into positions where they have manipulate people.
4. Lack of empathy – an inability to care about the feelings of others or put themselves in someone else’s shoes in an emotional way. Actually narcissists and psychopaths have a cold empathy which allows them to understand your fears, weaknesses, hopes and dreams. They can take an inventory of you and then use the your feelings against you.
5. Belief of being unique – They believe that they are very special and that they are better than everyone else. They often think that they have a unique powerful purpose that sets them above everyone else and gives them an excuse to do whatever they want and take whatever they want.
6. Sense of entitlement – They feel that they are entitled to anything and anyone they want. This includes things that belong to other people. It includes taking over the lives of other people and using people and then throwing them away like trash. There is no appreciation when people do anything for them because they were entitled to it, in the first place.
7. Requires excessive admiration – they want to be admired and paid attention to all the time. They have no tolerance for anyone else being in the spotlight. Because they need to have their false self validated, they need people to pay attention to, talk about, admire and basically worship their false self. That way the illusion of the false self stays strong.
8. Exploitative – they will take advantage of other people for their own best interest. They will take more than they give, refuse to pay people for their services in a fair way …if at all, and use people up until there is nothing left of them
9. Envious of others – they are resentful when other people have things that they feel entitled to. They become angry when they see that other people have things that they do not.
Once you begin to study narcissism and psychopathy, you begin to realize how many narcissists you have crossed paths with over the years.
The behaviors of pathological people are often hard to understand. You are likely to leave interactions with them feeling confused and crushed down.
When you are interacting with a narcissist, your thoughts and feelings are discounted. Any reasoning you try to do with them is met with a brick wall.
It is often better not to even give them reasons for your thoughts and feelings. Giving them reasons, just causes them to laugh at, mimimize and disregard you as a person.
They like to train you not to try to reason with them. They do not want to hear any side of things other than their own.
They will train you with rewards and punishments…. but mostly punishments. You will get anxiety when you even think about trying to get them to hear your side of a situation.
The narcissist will systematically train you to associate negative feelings with discussing anything with them. After having to feel embarrassed, insignificant, dumb, and guilty from repeated interactions with them, your brain will activate the fight or flight mode when you are picturing a conversation with them.
In your mind, you can play out scenarios. You can run through scenes in your head, based on different ways you can approach them and different things you can say to get them to see your side. But these scenes will always play out with the narcissistic getting the upper hand.
They will twist your words around. They will intentionally misconstrue what you are saying. They will use selective hearing, to miss important details of what you say.
You will find your reasons minimized pr disregarded, even if they are based on research that you can show them. They will not look at any proof you have, to back uo your reasons.
Your feelings will always be discounted and you will be made to feel that you have no right to ask them to consider your feelings.
Narcissists have no respect for your boundaries. They do not care how situations will affect you. You simply do not matter to them.
Experts on brainwashing will tell you that once a person has been broken down through deprivation of basic human needs and dignity, their reality is simple to manipulate.
Women that have been in abusive marriages for years can lose touch with what a healthy life would even be like. They lose touch with the reality that they knew before they became imprisoned into the hell they are living in.
Basic needs are denied by the husband. The wife is imprisoned in a way that it does not appear that way to outsiders. The husband puts on an act outside of the house. But inside, behind closed doors, the house is a fortress of whatever illusions he has created.
The prisoner knows her duties, her punishments, and her place. She lives in constant fear of angering the prison master.
Punishments are swift, cruel, and unjustified. The threats that are made to the wife if she dares to refuse compliance, are unthinkable to people who have never been through it.
People criticize women for staying because they are quick to judge, without understanding what really occurs inside the prison walls.
The prison master has been known to threaten the children with harm, should the prisoner try to make plans to escape. Prison masters will threaten to take the children away permanently.
The abuser, if he is a high functioning psychopath, can come up with all manner of punishments, and he has no moral regulation in any part of his brain to stop him from carrying out his retaliations.
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As part of women’s history month we have to realize the importance of domestic abuse, partner abuse and rape. The awareness of abuse of women needs to be highlighted. More awareness is needed.
Victim blaming and myths about abuse victims needs to be an important part of women’s history month. How many women have had their lives cut short due to a violent partner?
How many women have been emotionally abused with gaslighting and intentional brainwashing tactics by a predator who targeted them?
What great things might these women have accomplished, had they not been controlled and manipulated by an abusive partner?
How many potential contributions to human kind have been interfered with, by an abuser who crushed down the self esteem and undermined her ability to follow her dreams?
Awareness of mental, emotional and other kinds of abuse of women, needs to be addressed and light needs to be shed on how this has affected women’s history, and continues to do so.
Abuse causes PTSD in the victims. If you are having symptoms of depression, anxiety, trouble remembering things, flashbacks, and trouble getting on track with life after an abusive relationship, then you probably have PTSD or C-PTSD.
Years , or even months of abuse will cause physiological changes in the brain. For videos about PTSD from abuse, and C-PTSD see my YouTube channel HERE.