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If you are recently out of an abusive relationship with a narcissist or a psychopath, you might want to take some time to heal before you go back out into the dating world.
I know if can be very hard, because you feel lonely. You are used to being attached with one person and it is very difficult to be alone.
Toxic loneliness is one of the main reasons people go back into another abusive relationship, or they go back to their abuser. You can weather the storm of this, even though it will not be easy.
Being a victim of a narcissist, makes you a prime target for another one. Narcissists can spot you out of other people. It is like they can smell blood in the water. They have learned to read body language, and other signs of someone who will fall easily into their trap.
You would think that you would be able to spot another abuser, since you have already been through that, but you need to be well healed before you will be able to recognize them.
The new narcissist will seem different than the old one, because they look different, smell different and have different interests. They have a different job, live in a different town, and use different lines on you.
Once they get you talking, they will find out about your last relationship. They will seem sympathetic and tell you that only losers would treat a woman that way. They might tell how well they believe women should be treated and that they have no respect for those kinds of weak men who prey on vulnerable women.
If you are a man looking for a woman, the game will go similarly but probably with more sensual lure. The new narcissistic woman will sympathize with your pain from your last relationship. She will seem to care about what you went through. She will tell you that she believes in honesty and being straight with someone.
You will forget that the main tool in the narcissists’s tool box is lying.
You will be taken in by their charm and you will forget how the narcissist puts on the mask that you want to see.
If you need to fill the void that the last abuser left in you, then another narcissist will promise to fill that void. You will think that you could not possibly have such bad luck as to find another abuser, when you just got away from one.
It has nothing to do with luck. Narcissists and psychopaths are like sharks that search for blood in the water. They can smell fear, pain and vulnerability. They are so good at mirroring you, that they will convince you that they are tired of predators too. They will tell you a story to make you feel like you want to take care of them.
Recovering from an abusive relationship takes at least 5 times as long as recovering from a regular breakup.
You cannot heal in a couple of months. Not if they put you through the full gaslighting game and interfered with your reality. They left programming in your head.
The energy you are giving off is at the level that the narcissist left you at. Once you are able to bring that vibration up to a higher level, you will be safe from predators. But as long as it is low, it will be felt and be a match for psychopaths.
You will think that you are now sensitive to abusive tactics, but in your subconscious is programming that desensitized you to them. You have been brainwashed into believing that you should tolerate certain behaviors.
Your self esteem has been crushed and your subconscious brain still believes that you need to tolerate abuse in order to prove that you love someone.
You have to get to the point where you are comfortable alone with yourself. You have to get through the healing process until you are able to take good care of yourself. Self love is critical in order to not fall for a predator again.
If you are still thinking of ways to be good enough for someone else, then you are not ready. When you think someone should be good enough for you, then you are on the right track.
You are special. If you were no special in some way, a psychopath would not have preyed in you and kept you for so long. You were someone they wanted to break, because you have qualities that the narcissist will never have.
Healing from abuse is a process with many layers.
At some point you will realize that you need to heal old emotional wounds that go back to a time way before you ever met your abuser. These wounds need to be brought to the surface and cared for.
Your inner child is probably fractured in some way.
Emotional wounds cause fractures of the whole person. These fractured parts need to be integrated. The inner child that was traumatized needs to be nurtured. No one can do that work for you, but you can be guided in doing that work yourself.
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It takes practice and patience to learn to hear your own intuition and inner voice, after you have been conditioned over time to ignore your own true perceptions.
The narcissist tried to silence your voice, minimize it, confuse it and discredit it. But you still have an inner voice inside of you…. that can lead you in ways that will support your mental and emotional health.
Every sensation is part of your guidance system. If something feels wrong, it probably is.
Learn to trust your intuition and to hear your own guiding voice. There are other voices in your head, but you can learn to tell which one is your own. Programming put into your brain during childhood emotional and mental abuse will cause the negative “tapes” that play inside your head.
Things you hear yourself thinking that are negative about yourself, are like computer viruses that were put into your brain, without your consent!
When you are very young, you depend on your parents and caretaker to interpret the world for you. You turn to them to explain the meaning of things that happen.
Children need to know they have innate value, that is detached from mistakes they make or things they do. You have innate value. The things you do or do not do, do not change your true worth as a person.
Self soothing is an important skill that people who grew up in emotionally abusive households, never were taught. You were not taught to sooth yourself, but rather you were taught to berate yourself and shame yourself.
Children and teenagers need guidance to learn how to sooth themselves, when something bad happens. If you have C-PTSD from mental abuse as a child, then your feelings about bad things that happened to you were minimized, criticized and called selfish.
You need to learn that it is not selfish to set boundaries, and to protect your emotional and mental health. You have every right to take care of your own brain and your own heart.
If you grew up in an abusive environment, then you were told it was selfish when you tried to express your feelings about the things that were happening around you. The controlling parent wanted everything to revolve around them. They never considered your feelings about decisions they made, or their behaviors.
You probably developed “emotophobia” from being shut down every time you expressed your feelings about ad things that happened. Even expressing good feelings like joy, and self esteem were crushed down, and called selfish.
Shaming is one of the worst of the “viruses” that was programmed into you. No one self shames naturally. Babies do not come into the world feeling shame.
Parents that are manipulative, narcissistic, and mentally abusive, shame you for things that you should not have had to feel bad about. Now as an adult, you still hear those voices in your head anytime you make a mistake, or even do anything that elicits a negative reaction from other people.
Thoughts that you are a bad person, that you are inadequate, and that you will fail when you try to do something….these were programmed into you over years of negative reactions to you by your caretakers and people you trusted to love you.
Other people may have added to your negative perceptions about yourself. Teachers, bullies that were your peers, abusive babysitters and other people that you were exposed to as a child, may have added their own toxic spice to your view of yourself.
When you feel passionate about doing something that you feel called to do…
When you feel confident about something you want to give to the world…
When you know just for a second that you have something special to offer to the world, because only you have the unique gifts that you were born with….
When you feel called to help someone else, or other people in some way, by using your own ideas, knowledge, love, and other gifts…
These things are your own voice and you can tell because these thoughts support you.
When that thought comes in that tells you that …
you are not good enough
you are inadequate
there is something wrong with you
you do not deserve to be happy
you have nothing special to offer
you will just screw it up so why bother trying…
These are the NOT your own thoughts and you can tell because they do not support you.
Living in an abusive, chaotic traumatic childhood left emotional wounds on your heart. These wounds are carried around by you.
They are fed by the negative thoughts that someone once told you were true. Thoughts that you are not good enough. Thoughts that the world around you cannot be trusted and that you should shut yourself down and never try to bloom into the beautiful flower that you really are.
Old emotional wounds were reinforced by any abusive partners you ended up with as an adult.
Abusive partners are highly skilled at identifying and re-opening old emotional wounds. Narcissist and psychopaths target people who are carrying emotional wounds from childhood. They can identify you from other people.
Abusers know how to gain your trust , so that you will reveal all of your weaknesses and wounds to them. Then they will turn the table and throw salt in your wounds, in order to control you.
Your reptilian (primal) brain always tries to keep you away from danger. The abuser know how to activate that fight or flight mode in your brain, and make you feel in danger.
The reopening of emotional wounds is so painful, that it is one of the favorite tools of the narcissist to use against you.
They will make it clear to you that they will injure you in the worst possible ways, if you do not comply with them. They will use your old wounds against you, by threatening to, and by throwing salt into them.
You will want to avoid this pain by any means possible, and then you will comply with them in order not to have to be re-traumatized by someone recreating your past trauma for you.
Once you realize that the negative programs in your brain, are not true, then you can begin to re-write these programs in ways that best support you. You never learned to self generate feelings of self worth, but you can learn now.