Being in an intimate relationship with a psychpath awakens your reality to a darkness you never knew existed. You always knew that there were serial killers and rapists in the world, but you never knew they could be hidden behind a charming exterior.
You consented to being close to the person they presented themselves to be. But you never consented to being intimate with someone who carries darkness within them.
When you hear people say that you chose to be in a relationship with an abuser, it is confusing and re-traumatizing. They make their point by saying that you had free will and walked into the relationship with open eyes.
They do not understand the mind manipulatiin of a psychopath and how your reality was very different at the beginning of the relationship than it is now.
Not only do you have to come to terms with the cognitive dissonance of the two different realities…the person you thought you were sleeping with….and the person you were actually sleeping with……
You now have to listen to this other proposed reality that you went into the relationship with an abuser with open eyes and free choice.
Only two kinds of people would say this to you….Pathological narcissists….and very closed minded judgemental people who think they are better than you, because of course…it would never have happened to them!
The narcissists that post comments like this on the youtube blogs of survivors are sadistically gaslighting the victims. They are intentionally twisting your reality, which they are fully aware has already been twisted by one of “their kind.”
Victim blaming is most often instigated by pathological narcissists. Other people may believe their lies because they are being manipulated by the narcissist. So the very people saying that no one can have their mind manipulated….are having their own minds manipulated….and their beliefs fed to them by a narcissist.
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As part of women’s history month we have to realize the importance of domestic abuse, partner abuse and rape. The awareness of abuse of women needs to be highlighted. More awareness is needed.
Victim blaming and myths about abuse victims needs to be an important part of women’s history month. How many women have had their lives cut short due to a violent partner?
How many women have been emotionally abused with gaslighting and intentional brainwashing tactics by a predator who targeted them?
What great things might these women have accomplished, had they not been controlled and manipulated by an abusive partner?
How many potential contributions to human kind have been interfered with, by an abuser who crushed down the self esteem and undermined her ability to follow her dreams?
Awareness of mental, emotional and other kinds of abuse of women, needs to be addressed and light needs to be shed on how this has affected women’s history, and continues to do so.
Every act of compassion matters. Each time you offer a kindness to another living being it matters.
Whether or not you feel that they appreciated your intention afterwords or not, does not change what your intention was.
Sometimes we are not aware of the motives of others, or what is going on in their heads. You may have had a relationship with someone for a long time, and then realized that they never felt the way you thought they did.
They may not have accepted your loving intentions in the way you wanted them to. Some people feel entitled to your service, and therefore cannot truly appreciate the caring intention behind things you did for them. This does not change what your intention was.
Just because the reality of someone is different than your own does not change the power of your personal meaning for acts of compassion and kindness towards them.
Kindness can be shown to random strangers or even people who you never see. You may have held the door for a mom who was struggling with babies and bags at the store. Your small kindness may have affected her mood in a way that it was passed into her…and then she passed the kindness energy along to someone in her home.
You do not always see the domino effect of your good heart.
It is true that sometimes people will turn on you when you least expect it. You may feel that this negates every kindness you ever showed them. But this is not true.
Kindness and compassion are poweful energies. They exist in spite of people who cannot accept or appreciate their pure essence.
This is not to say that you should allow people to walk over you. It is not to encourage you to go out of your way for manipulative people. Not at all.
It is just let you know that your intentions always matter. They have a far more reaching effect than the particular person or situation.
Generating loving intentions towards others sends these intentions out into the energy fields all around you. You can send positive energies to someone sitting near you on the bus, and never speak a word to them.
The energy of intention takes on a life of its own. If you are empathic at all, then you can feel when someone near you is projecting bad energy like anger or evil intention. It is felt in your gut or other places in the body.
The people around you feel and receive the intentions you create. You can self generate compassion and kindness. It can be sent tosomeone else with a gentle touch on the shoulder, or just by making eye contact.
Studies have been able to prove that there are magnetic fields of energy that are projected out from each individual person.
In fact this is true for all living things. That is why you can feel certain kinds of grounding energies when you are in nature.
Trees and plants give off magnetic energy fields. Human magnetic energy fields extend at least 3 to 6 feet in all directions, based on scientific research and studies.
Paying attention to your gut feelings can protect you from people sending malicious energies. It can also guide you toward people that create positive intention and project that compassion outward for others to feel and access.
Some people are energy vampires. You feel drained of energy after spending time with them.
Others are generous with their beautiful strengthening energies. Humans can transmit feelings of empathy, excitement, acceptance and many other loving energy fields.
Any act of kindness or positive intention you have done or will do, matters. Anytime you project compassion, it has an effect on the collective consciousness of living things.
Even if it turns out that you could not connect with someone in the way you wanted to or expected to, your positive intentions were still sent out to other living beings around you.
Try to surround yourself with loving, supportive people that accept your beautiful pure energies.
Even if someone has let you down in the past, you can still connect with caring people.
Your intentions matter, although you cannot change people who do not want to change. Everyone will not see you for who you are.
Everyone will not be receptive to healing energies, empathy or kindness. Some people just want to see how much they can manipulate you. Try to learn how to identify these kinds of people, so you can minimize contact with them.
The higher your consciousness level, the more truth you will see about the energy fields being projected by others.
Low consciousness levels will attract other people in similar consciousness levels.
Abuse and trauma can sometimes bring your consciousness level down, and affect what kinds of energy you are projecting.
Be careful to assess your psychological and spiritual state, before interacting with others.
Strengthen your ability to self generate states you want to be in.
Awareness of your intuition, gut feelings and energy sensations in your body will help you to self generate specific states.
All of your compassionate intentions have mattered and will continue to matter.
Even intentions that you sent out to people undeserving of those intentions, are not lost. The effect on the energetic dimension was still there, even if the person you were trying to care for had ulterior motives.
People may try to drain your energies because they can control a drained person easier than someone filled with excitement and purpose.
You can build energy projection skills. You can practice self generating moods and states of being. The better you become at these skills, the more powerful you will be.
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It is extremely tempting to keep checking on what your ex is up to. They count on this and will intentionally pose for pictures that will bother you, and then post them on their facebook page. They want you to see them havint a great time with the new target.
The narcissists gets fuel (narcissistic supply) from knowing that you are jealous of their new partner. They will intentionally take that partner to places and activities they told you they would not do with you. This is to rub salt into your already painful wounds.
For all you know they dragged the person to those places and they did not really want to go. You know how powerful the narcissist is at manipulating. If course the partner is going to smile for the pictures, because they do not want to look bad on facebook.
You are being mind controlled by the narcissist. They want you to think that this time the relationship is real, and that you missed out because you were not good enough for them. But it is all the same game.
The pathological narcissists works in cycles. They repeat them over and over again. The idealization and devaluing….the triangulation of the new target with the ex lover. They gain lots of narcissistic supply from triangulating you with the new partner,because they are causing jealousy in both of you.
They are mentioning you to the new partner. Your name will likely come up from time to time, just so the new target knows they have to stay in line, if they want to keep the relationship. The narcissist will tell lies about you in any number of ways. They may tell the new partner that you are still interested in them…or that you were better at something that they are.
This is all part of garnering fuel (narcissistic supply). You are playing into their hands, just the way they planned, by checking on their facebook page and other social media. In order to heal, you have to go No Contact for real.
Checking their pictures and activities is still a passive form of contact. You need to heal and regain your identity. Unfriend them and let them stew about that. It is the best way to get back at them.
Important things to teach our children
-to think for themselves
-think through the words and behaviors of others
– to listen to your own intuition
– feelings in your head and your body are always telling you something
-If something feels wrong it probably is
-If something does not make sense to you, then someone may be manipulating you.
-Balance is important in everything…especially relationships
-You do not have to pay now to benefit later in a relationship. It is an idea the manipulative people want women to buy
-Everyone is not innately good, although many people are
-Don’t overlook things you do not like in a relationship just because you do not want to be alone
-Learn to be happy spending time alone
-You are worthy of being treated special
-Anyone who tells you that you cannot do better than them is lying
-You never deserve abuse
-If someone makes you feel bad a lot of the time, the relationship is not food for you
-Your self esteem is important and anyone who cares about you knows this
-No one should be condescending or sarcastic to you in a relationship
-There is “no time frame” for having to fall in love, get married or be committed
-Someone who loves you will not pressure you
-Someone who cares about you will not shame or guilt to manipulate you
-Punishments and retaliation are not part of a loving relationship
-You should not have to change for anyone
-No one is going to change for you
-There is no “point of no return” about leaving a relationship
-Another person does not make you “whole.” You are already complete.
-You don’t have to follow any path just because someone else wants you to.
Abuse causes PTSD in the victims. If you are having symptoms of depression, anxiety, trouble remembering things, flashbacks, and trouble getting on track with life after an abusive relationship, then you probably have PTSD or C-PTSD.
Years , or even months of abuse will cause physiological changes in the brain. For videos about PTSD from abuse, and C-PTSD see my YouTube channel HERE.
Dance with beauty, dance
Like you did when you were younger
Do your dance with pure abandon
Sweetly sing and share your voice
Let your soulful spirit sour
Like a bird that first flies free
For you are prisoner no more